I'm baaaaaaack : )

So once again it has been quite a while since I have last posted anything, and considering everything that has gone on these past 6 months or so, I have good reason. For anyone following me that didn't know Alyssa passed away back in March, so these last 6 months have been a long and difficult journey for me to bring me to an understanding. For a while I was angry, I couldn't understand how a child who has battled cancer for a year, has been found cancer free, could die from complications caused by the treatments given to help cure it? I have made peace with her passing away considering that being angry wasn't going to change anything, and I'm glad she's in a better place. Ginger and I (Alyssa's mom) have decided we want to start a foundation in Alyssa's name and are working slowly on the finer details that goes with it. It seems to be a very detailed process, so who knows how long it could be. Anyway, we want to name it Angels of Hope, which we think would be fitting...because Alyssa had so much hope, and we want to be able to share that Hope with other families.
I decided to not to go back to school this semester...interesting things have happened with NGU, and I just feel like God is pointing me in a different direction. Don't know what that direction is just yet, but I'm gonna keep praying, and in time I will know.
In the meantime I have a full-time babysitting job for little 6 week old Lauren. I'll have to post pictures when I get time. She's absolutely beautiful and precious. Very exciting.

I've had a struggle recently with forgiveness, and something awesome happened. Sunday I went to church (at Marathon) and the sermon was on Why we feel like God hasn't answered our prayers. This message applied to me...big time. Eddie talked about how sometimes when we can't forgive others for whatever reason, we let that bitterness distract us from our relationship with him. If we can't get past that, then we aren't allowing God to work in our lives the way that we need him to. So I'm working on this. I have bitterness towards some people (friends, family, etc) that I have let distract me from what God's will may be for my life, and my purpose on this earth. So I'm letting go, and letting God take care of it. I am forgiving, and I am changing. I want my life to be more than what it is.

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